Where Have I Been? Word on the street is you went ghost...

Every now and then I run into people from Community College.. they ask, “what happened to your psych and business degree?” you just disappeared.. and I see you on Instagram working out and talking about breathwork sometimes..

"Where have you been?..What have you been up to?"..How's life?

TRUTH? that's a loaded question..

I can tell you I was on the road to being a double major. The goal was a PHD and a career in counseling/psychotherapy. Maybe work for a special team studying human behavior like on those cool shows...

I was going to have my own practice --

I was determined to achieve it. 

 As a kid I knew I’d be a therapist,  I’d help people. I had dreams of  listening to people talk to me about their life and problems.

It was giving Jamie Lee Curtis in Freaky Friday.. with all the pagers, important business woman, but also had a family type vibes

Of course I’d also own a dance studio that I'd head to after work💃

Becoming a fitness trainer just happened. it's like it was a part of a plan meant for me, and it was just waiting for me to show up.

I always loved movement, i grew up with it..I started dancing when i was 2 years old.

I played sports.. being active is second nature to me.

but i didn't plan on being a fitness trainer...

I was following the roadmap to my goals when I started daydreaming in my psychology classes; writing down plans and dreams of things I wanted to do..

and I actually enjoyed those classes until my focus and energy went elsewhere.

One day everything changed and I wasn’t the same since.

Fast forward to transfer time. I got into a handful of schools but not the  school I wanted to go to.

Suddenly the plan felt so unaligned..imagine the little version of me so torn on what to do. 

Inside I knew something else was calling for me.. something I couldn’t see.. but I could feel.

I had to honor my intuition. So, I took a year off to give myself more time.

I continued to pursue my passions, teach fitness and dance, be an entrepreneur.. create the life I wanted.

I kept my acceptance letters on my desk, and every morning 👀 I told myself, “You can always go back when/ if you choose to.”

Fast forward to 2019 - I was at a women's business seminar.

This is the day Breathwork came into my life.

Imagine this.

tears running down my face, listening to Celine Dion and some lady telling us to continue to breathe, surrounded by hundreds of strangers (since i went alone).

It was beautiful, I never experienced anything like it.

It was Soooo NOT ME to be crying like that.. and in Public.

Not because I’m too cool to be VULNERABLE  

Somewhere along the way I started holding everything in

I always had movement as a release

But somewhere along the way it became a bandaid

it wasn't until 2020 when the world changed and I like many others, was forced to slow down and feel.

I was doing group Breathwork sessions online and it helped me to connect with parts of myself I'd long forgotten.

i tapped into so many subconscious memories and within them were pockets full of pain I'd pushed down so far, I didn't realize they were affecting me.

BREATH WORKS because it’s already inside of you, it's not a one stop shop, you don't become "fixed" or "cured" after one session.

Just like you don't get the results after one workout.. it doesn't work that way.

When I learned how to intentionally breathe…

A sort of unraveling happened

Once again, I found myself in the middle of carrying out my plans and God stepped into my life

"You're going to do this work, you'll travel to different places and teach people how to breathe."

That wasn't a plan or idea i had for myself - but I knew i had to be obedient to this inner knowing

It’s 2023, I’m a Fitness trainer, I run a mobile company bringing mindfulness + movement to kids in schools. I’m a Trauma Informed Breathwork Facilitator, i work with people of all ages from kids to adults, sports teams, high school students, etc—- and I’m open to what’s next on the path.

I didn’t see breathwork as being a part of my journey but it’s helped me in so many ways.

I’m so excited to share this with whoever needs it

If we're being honest, collectively we have known loss, grief, pain, stress, anxiety, sleepless nights— experienced fear + uncertainty in today's world.

Some of us more then others

Some of us have been through the darkest of things but walk around with a smile on our face

🙋🏾‍♀️I was one of those people just powering through pain and trauma

 Now I choose to acknowledge the things I've experienced on my journey and embrace the strength I've gained from those experiences.

Breathwork, Movement + Mindful Living brings me so much peace 💜 I'm so grateful that I can help others through this work even though it wasn't my plan.

I don't know that I won't decide to continue to pursue a degree in Psychology like i planned so many years ago, for now I'm living in my purpose and I'm honored to be able to help people every day that I wake up.

Truth be told, people come up to me and tell me about their life, problems, and a whole lot more...without the degree, the office, the practice.

I'm not knocking education.just saying..because it happens regularly --- and i don't have the salary or letters behind my name..and maybe that's okay. 

I don't know what the future holds, but I'm open to the possibilities and I don't regret my decision because I wouldn't be the person I am today without the experience life gave me on my unplanned detour.

If the plans change, we'll see what happens next.